Spiritual Growth and Balance

I believe that there are stages of spiritual growth. Working hard on inner reflection and taking responsibility for my health is where it all started for me. I had to learn that negativity had no room in my spiritual life. It was at that point where you can ask yourself, what do I need to do to work towards growing my spirit positively?  What is it that gives me balance? These were things that I couldn't ask myself before because I had so many mental blocks. My mental blocks consisted of pain, anger, ugliness and death. I had to die to my old ways, my old behaviors, and my old choices in order for my spiritual transformation to begin.  I started reading the KJV Bible and staying in constant communication with God again.  I spoke to my Lord and pleaded for his help and forgiveness because my life had gotten so far ahead of me, I couldn't tell which direction I was headed. What I did know, was that path of depression lead me down a very dark space where I began to drown.  It was then that I made the choice to save myself by asking for the help from my higher power. I had to surrender my all and trust that there was better for me. I had to remember in God's Word that he has promised me greatness and that he will never leave me nor forsake me.  I cried so hard. As I stared into the sunlight in the middle of my desk area, and cried with my hands reaching up and the Lord has crowned me ever since. 

I've been working on retraining the way that I think; the way that I handle things and I came up with some goals for myself to grow spiritually. That was the only way that I knew my life would ever get better. I practice everyday, being kind and I pray that my Omega helps me to live righteously. I asked him to teach me how to forgive myself for the choices that I'd made. Help me to forgive those who have wronged me, including myself. I was standing there with my arms up sobbing because I was finally taking responsibility for my behaviors and I knew that he would redeem me. After about a good hour, I had finally stopped crying and put my arms down. I felt so light, like a feather (No..not because my arms were up for so long. I felt so much peace an warmth in my heart. It was as though a lot of pain and anger that I was holding on to, had been lifted off. I have not had a desire to look back ever since. 

I love the way that I feel when I can wake up in the morning with a positive mind and a peaceful heart.  Every day I strive for balance and internal harmony. Whatever that may look like to you, do what you need to do to feed your spirit. Try letting go of anger and negative thoughts. Practice replacing invalidating words that you say to yourself with positive affirmations.  Grow your spirit and begin to see your transformation.  Happy Healing Everyone